K I T S C H — Cate's Blog

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Drinking, drunk, passed out

Honestly, that is the sum total of my planned states of being for the evening. Not very productive, I know. Still, fuck it.

I really didn't think I'd be so affected by this election. And I guess I hadn't realized that, at least near the very end, I had such high hopes that Kerry might pull it off. Hey, he did it in New York, which is where I cast my absentee ballot. Not that there was ever any doubt about NYS going blue, but still, I'm glad to know my vote will count in the popular tally. (One likes to assume my ballot will make it there anyway.)

This morning I woke up and rushed to my computer, even before I had a shower, to check out the election results. Then I saw whatever NYTimes.com article was on the front page at 6 a.m. that said it wasn't over but still let me know that, dude, it was totally over. I cried for a while, had a shower, applied about a metric assload of firming eye cream and got on with my day.

I was okay for most of it too. Sure, I felt kind of like a freak for crying and started wondering if I had PMS. But that's pretty damn sick in itself, isn't it? Especially when you consider how many other people, male and female, feel totally gutted by this election. Then, right before I left work, I read a few blog entries from those people and completely lost it. I almost made it out of the office, too, without anyone seeing me crying. (Sorry, Dan. Thanks for understanding.)

I know I'm being pissy, but tonight I feel entitled. Tomorrow I'll do my best to go back to being brave for the future and glad that so many voters did try to veto Bush. I'll even try to be nice about the fact that my mostly Republican family got what they wanted. Not what they deserve, though.

Nobody deserves another four years of this shit.

:: posted by Cate 7:56:29 PM